Life's work

Having just completed my HSC [Higher School Certificate], I recently acquired a casual job. Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to have it - the pay is pretty good and the atmosphere over there is REALLY nice. Like seriously, the people there basically make it a social outing and the building is quite impressive :) But what I have trouble with is the sheer repetitiveness of work. And that is what brings us to the topic of today... Work.

What is most confronting about having a full time job isn't the fact that I'm potentially stuck to doing the same things and meeting the same people everyday. The fact that it takes up a large portion of my time is what most concerns me. You see, at the moment, I have been scheduled to work full four days a week from 9-5. Potentially that means that I have to wake up at 7:30 as my workplace is in the city and that I wouldn't get home till 6 at the earliest. After dinner, I'm usually so tired that I can't do anything but lie on my bed completely exhausted... I don't want that to be how I spend the rest of my life. 

Despite that, I realise that there is no other way that I can live my life. A source of income in this day and age is a necessity, and having a full time job is the only practical way of achieving that goal. With this epiphany comes a great deal of respect for my parents. Having to do that everyday for the last 20-something years is no small feat and I cannot help but wonder how the rest of the world does something like that. I know that many people will point out that I'm whining about such a superficial problem as I live in a world where I do not need to worry about when my next meal is coming along or where I can sleep tonight. However, I just cannot push out of my head that having this type of life would make life... so pointless. The trappings of society that's how I see it. 

By the end of the day, I just can't find an answer to this dilemma that presented itself to me. Metaphorically, I feel like I'm in a corner with nowhere to go. Realistically, I realise that acceptance of this reality is inevitable. But I just cannot accept that life is encompassed by nothing more than your career and the monetary wealth that it brings...